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We want so much to be in love
and then we drown in it


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I am obsessive
I am in love, and I recognize, and appreciate the changes it has caused in me... but I still know what it feels like to be completely alone.
and that value is priceless.
I believe in the human experience.
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Cooke Family genes are very easy to spot… 
The nose, which almost everone has, except me because mine was broken, and never came back quite the same   (yay me)
The Height, which is actually funny because all of my GIANT uncles married short women, and now we all are just about normal height. 
The Boobs, one day you go to sleep flat chested, the next you have to buy bras online because it looks as if you will topple over. 

Now, not all of us have all of these traits, my sister, has normal smallish boobs, and after mingling between the 6 footer men and the 5 footer women, us cousins all turned out to be normal heights in the 5”4 - 5”6 range, although Ange still has some growing to do. 

I am the oldest of all the cousins (even the oldest of the “cousins” who are just super close friends of the family.) So, I should probably be setting an example… and even more so because I was lucky enough to get the most psychotic person in the family as my father, but thats another story all in its self …. anyway I SHOULD be setting an example to my sister, and my cousins, about working hard, and being in school, and being happy, and having fun , and loving the body your in and all that other bullshit. 

But, Im here just trying to learn it all myself, I don’t really have too much role models for myself, and Im the kind of person who needs to do some stupid shit to realize that “damn, I should have just listened to everyone else “

I was at My cousins house the other night, and I have not seen her (other than Facebook) for years. She is beautiful, and smart, and having the same body troubles that I was having in High School. She wants to fit into the skinny jeans, but her hips are wide, and legs are thick, bras are hard to find in her size, so she shops online, and can usually only get ugly ones, or expensive ones… and over all she just feels too big. 
And, I felt the same way, so I made changes, too many changes…. and I got too skinny, and guess what that didnt make me feel better. But try telling a 17 year old that. 
And still to this day, I think my legs are too thick, my boobs are too big… 
So, how to I tell her not to think about it, when thats all I think about too. 
She thinks she is fat, but she is athletic, she is thick, she is fucking beautiful. 
I tell her, that we wear the same size pants… so if she is fat, I’m fat. 
But sometimes I feel fat… So I dont know who I was helping there. 
I just dont see it, she looks damn near perfect, and shes 17. 

YOU DONT WANT TO BE AT YOUR PEAK in high school.
and this is something I didn’t understand until recently. 
In high school, I felt pretty, but I also felt weird, I had this adult body and adult problems, and I never had time to feel like a kid, but my brain was still on high school mode, and that conflict is mind warping… 
And this conflict causes trouble…


I just want her them to know that, there is nothing you can do about your body. YOU CAN EAT HEALTHY AND WORK OUT, but you will always have big hips and big boobs, and YOU SHOULD APPRECIATE THAT! 

I almost want to buy some porn magazines and show them, THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE WANT TO LOOK AT. but I dont because their parents WOULD NOT appreciate that. 

anyway, point of the story is, its going to take a while, but size doesn’t matter as much as Cosmo tells you. And you are smart, and I know you wont see this or understand it right away and it might sound like total BULLSHIT it is true. 

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alexandraelle:


I came across this amazing article by Anthony N. via .swansonvitamins.com. This post was probably the best  one I’ve seen on coconut oil. I hope you enjoy! This list is amazing and very helpful. 
Cooking and Eating
1) Cooking at High Heat - Some oils are unsafe to cook with at high temperatures, coconut oil is a great alternative.
 
2) On Toast Instead of Butter - Simply use coconut oil instead of butter on your toast.
 
3) Eat it by the Spoonful - Coconut oil is that delicious and healthful. Enjoy one spoonful each morning.
 
4) Smoothies - Add one tablespoon of coconut oil into your favorite smoothie recipe and increase your energy with the oil’s MCTs. Check out this post for the Top Smoothie Ingredients.
 
5) Fry Eggs - Lightly coat the bottom of your skillet with coconut oil to create a non-stick surface and delicious eggs.
 
6) Popping Popcorn - A sweet twist on a classic snack! To make stovetop popcorn, you need a heavy-bottomed pan. First, add the coconut oil and popcorn to the pot. Coat the area of the pot with the oil, and use just enough popcorn to make a single layer over the bottom of the pot. Give the pot a little shake to make sure all of the kernels are coated with oil. Next, place the pot over medium heat. Put the lid on the pot, leaving it slightly open so that steam can escape. It should take about five minutes for the popcorn to pop completely.
 
7) Popcorn Topping - Instead of butter, melt a little coconut oil and pour it over your popped popcorn. Then sprinkle lightly with Himalayan crystal salt.8) Oven Baked Sweet Potato Chips - Preheat your oven to 400 degrees. Thinly slice sweet potatoes to about 1/8” thick.  Place slices on a baking sheet and brush lightly with coconut oil. Bake for about 15 minutes or until chips are lightly brown.  Add salt to taste, and serve with salsa or dip. (Or just eat them plain – either way they’re delicious!)
 
9) Replace Vegetable Oil for Baking - Next time you make your favorite brownie recipe, replace the vegetable oil with coconut oil. Your friends will be begging you for the recipe.
 
10) Pan Frying - Next time you fry up a batch of sweet potato fries or a piece of chicken, use coconut oil.
 
11) Grilled Cheese with Coconut Oil - No need for butter the next time you are making a grilled cheese sandwich. 
 
12) Coconut Oil Coffee - Adding a spoonful to your coffee is a delicious way to start your day with a huge energy boost! Here is a great recipe for coconut oil coffee.
 
13) Homemade Granola - Check out this delicious recipe for coconut granola.
 
14) A Spoonful in Tea - Allow some coconut oil to melt and mildly flavor your next cup of tea. 
 
15) Salad Dressings - A simple recipe for a salad dressing with coconut oil can be found here.
 
Read the rest on thegoodhairblog.com

alexandraelle:

I came across this amazing article by Anthony N. via .swansonvitamins.com. This post was probably the best  one I’ve seen on coconut oil. I hope you enjoy! This list is amazing and very helpful. 
Cooking and Eating
1) Cooking at High Heat - Some oils are unsafe to cook with at high temperatures, coconut oil is a great alternative.
 
2) On Toast Instead of Butter - Simply use coconut oil instead of butter on your toast.
 
3) Eat it by the Spoonful - Coconut oil is that delicious and healthful. Enjoy one spoonful each morning.
 
4) Smoothies - Add one tablespoon of coconut oil into your favorite smoothie recipe and increase your energy with the oil’s MCTs. Check out this post for the Top Smoothie Ingredients.
 
5) Fry Eggs - Lightly coat the bottom of your skillet with coconut oil to create a non-stick surface and delicious eggs.
 
6) Popping Popcorn - A sweet twist on a classic snack! To make stovetop popcorn, you need a heavy-bottomed pan. First, add the coconut oil and popcorn to the pot. Coat the area of the pot with the oil, and use just enough popcorn to make a single layer over the bottom of the pot. Give the pot a little shake to make sure all of the kernels are coated with oil. Next, place the pot over medium heat. Put the lid on the pot, leaving it slightly open so that steam can escape. It should take about five minutes for the popcorn to pop completely.
 
7) Popcorn Topping - Instead of butter, melt a little coconut oil and pour it over your popped popcorn. Then sprinkle lightly with Himalayan crystal salt.

8) Oven Baked Sweet Potato Chips - Preheat your oven to 400 degrees. Thinly slice sweet potatoes to about 1/8” thick.  Place slices on a baking sheet and brush lightly with coconut oil. Bake for about 15 minutes or until chips are lightly brown.  Add salt to taste, and serve with salsa or dip. (Or just eat them plain – either way they’re delicious!)
 
9) Replace Vegetable Oil for Baking - Next time you make your favorite brownie recipe, replace the vegetable oil with coconut oil. Your friends will be begging you for the recipe.
 
10) Pan Frying - Next time you fry up a batch of sweet potato fries or a piece of chicken, use coconut oil.
 
11) Grilled Cheese with Coconut Oil - No need for butter the next time you are making a grilled cheese sandwich. 
 
12) Coconut Oil Coffee - Adding a spoonful to your coffee is a delicious way to start your day with a huge energy boost! Here is a great recipe for coconut oil coffee.
 
13) Homemade Granola - Check out this delicious recipe for coconut granola.
 
14) A Spoonful in Tea - Allow some coconut oil to melt and mildly flavor your next cup of tea. 
 
15) Salad Dressings - A simple recipe for a salad dressing with coconut oil can be found here.
 

@mizz_cherry28 I don’t know about you… But I’m watching the Knicks game at kona 💜💜

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“So my amazing daughter, Emma, turned 5 last month, and I had been searching everywhere for new-creative inspiration for her 5yr pictures. I noticed quite a pattern of so many young girls dressing up as beautiful Disney Princesses, no matter where I looked 95% of the “ideas” were the “How to’s” of  how to dress your little girl like a Disney Princess…We chose 5 women (five amazing and strong women), as it was her 5th birthday but there are thousands of unbelievable women (and girls) who have beat the odds and fought (and still fight) for their equal rights all over the world

 - Jaime Moore, Not Just a Girl

This is awesome!

This is so great, and inspiring, and I really love it… <3

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there just are not enough hours in the day. 
I need to make smaller goals… 
I also need to learn to say no…

I need to quit fucking around and just go back to this color immediately